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I finally have my own! Please head on to my new site and join me there in my journey through life’s ups and downs.

Another blessing from God

I’m delayed. And yes, when we tested for pregnancy, I am positive! We learned about it very early, so when we went to the OB for an ultrasound, my baby was still a gestational sac. After 2 weeks, we go back and see if my baby has a heartbeat na. I still can’t believe it now. I never thought I deserve a chance like this. Mixed feelings flood through my heart – happy, elated, scared. But all in all, grateful for the gift God has given me and my husband. We pray that we will be able to live up to God’s expectations as parents. This is a start of our journey, I assure you you’ll hear more about it…

When God says YES

I’ve been struggling a lot these past few weeks, walking in a haze of all the things I need to do. I always try to rationalize it all, and I’m glad I’m not facing any major changes this time around. But God has a funny way of reminding you that we always need to rock the boat, in terms of our faith. We should never be complacent and just be used to what we have. What He giveth, He can taketh away. Har har. I will be facing major adjustments this coming weeks, and I feel relieved that I have passed a stage of my life where my patience and understanding was refined in fire… But I also feel anxious about what the future holds. But I am thankful for the chance. God will not give me this chance if He is not cooking up something big for me <wink>.

YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

High on Dreams

Why do we stress ourselves into working? Into dealing with difficult bosses and choosing overtime instead of family time? In the few years that I am working, I realized that all your hardwork is for nothing. In life, we want to achieve a certain level of success. We want to be promoted, earn a high salary, be recognized. But we do not see that these are just temporary. Yes, you improve yourself, but as an employee. You find yourself in a rat race called life.

I have long felt that I don’t belong in the office. At first I thought I was just lazy, or that I just don’t have enough confidence in myself. But these past few days, I realized that what I really want in my life is to do the things I want to do, not because I need to do them. The corporate life is not the path for me.

So, gathering all my courage, I prayed. I realized that it doesn’t mean I’m an employee now, I’m an employee forever. I should involve myself in businesses. If I don’t start now, I will just go insane (Definition: People who do things the same way over and over again, expecting different results).

I think of my dreams. My future children. On how nice it is to take care of them myself without having to worry of money. I see myself teaching, even without a salary. I see myself giving so generously because I have more than enough. I see me and my husband, sleeping till we are done sleeping. We have a deeper relationship because we have all the time to our family. These things define what success is for me. Not the big office with a nice view. Or that double digit salary that will pay off a condo and a car. I dream of a life that is mine. I control it.

Yes, I am high on dreams. I may be stuck in the office now, but it’s temporary. It’s only a matter of time before all our efforts and hardwork will be rewarded.

Happy Hearts’ Day!

This is the first Valentines’ Day me and my husband have as a married couple. Surprisingly, we are not lovestruck anymore. We still feel the love in the air, with prices of roses rocketing sky high, restaurants fully booked, and concerts sold out. Of course, there are still our singleton friends who are constantly nagging us to find them a blind date, so they could have a date that is not necessarily blind.

I guess its because me and my husband had the chance to go beyond romance already. We are married, and its a far cry from just dating or going steady. We have bigger concerns now. We no longer take things lightly or nonchalantly. We are building a future, and a family. We have responsibilities as well.

I’m not complaining, don’t get me wrong. It’s been a bliss! But I appreciate my husband more and more each day that I realize that my life is better and happier because I have someone to share it with. I still keep my individuality, but I am complementary to someone. And I don’t limit myself to Valentines’ Day to appreciate him.

Happy Valentines’ Day everyone!