Another blessing from God

I’m delayed. And yes, when we tested for pregnancy, I am positive! We learned about it very early, so when we went to the OB for an ultrasound, my baby was still a gestational sac. After 2 weeks, we go back and see if my baby has a heartbeat na. I still can’t believe it now. I never thought I deserve a chance like this. Mixed feelings flood through my heart – happy, elated, scared. But all in all, grateful for the gift God has given me and my husband. We pray that we will be able to live up to God’s expectations as parents. This is a start of our journey, I assure you you’ll hear more about it…

Happy Hearts’ Day!

This is the first Valentines’ Day me and my husband have as a married couple. Surprisingly, we are not lovestruck anymore. We still feel the love in the air, with prices of roses rocketing sky high, restaurants fully booked, and concerts sold out. Of course, there are still our singleton friends who are constantly nagging us to find them a blind date, so they could have a date that is not necessarily blind.

I guess its because me and my husband had the chance to go beyond romance already. We are married, and its a far cry from just dating or going steady. We have bigger concerns now. We no longer take things lightly or nonchalantly. We are building a future, and a family. We have responsibilities as well.

I’m not complaining, don’t get me wrong. It’s been a bliss! But I appreciate my husband more and more each day that I realize that my life is better and happier because I have someone to share it with. I still keep my individuality, but I am complementary to someone. And I don’t limit myself to Valentines’ Day to appreciate him.

Happy Valentines’ Day everyone!

Reconnecting

My husband and I attended our 1st ever household meeting as a married couple last night. I must say, I miss attending households. Aside from the loving environment, I miss the nourishment and support our brothers and sisters in Christ offer. And we almost didn’t come.

We had a big fight in the morning. We rarely fight, but when we do, it is as heated as summer! It was just over a petty thing, but I knew then that we are being tested. I have resolved to improve myself, so instead of answering back, I kept silent. But little did I know that my husband would mistake it for ignoring him. To make a long story short, we kissed and made up. That is what is nice about our relationship. No matter what argument we get into, we would always resolve to find a compromise. And I have learned to be humble and admit I am wrong.

We are blessed with our husbands and wives. We know how life can be so colorful because you share it with someone you truly care for. From just being one, you become two bodies. It is a lot of hardwork, especially at the start, but it is a work in progress. You learn a lot from each other everyday. You learn to appreciate the other more and more.

As I adjust to being a wife, I am thankful that we are slowly reconnecting with our community. But this time, not with the singles, but with the couples. I feel awed with how different it is! I have this concern before that I can no longer relate to my co-singles. I had to think of our budget, our expenses, our schedule. We have a household to run unlike when you are single, you tend to think only for one. Now, you think for a family. Your own family. And its comforting to know that we are not alone in this endeavor.

My soulmate

Honestly, I think I have been neglecting my husband. I always want to have my own way, not realizing that my husband is so loving he gives in to my every whim. This is not right.

In a world where a woman is as good as a man, our upbringing promotes girl power. I am a product of girl power – I am an empowered individual. I have a strong enough personality, I sometimes think I am better than men, but I am as soft as a feather. But God spoke to me this morning, He made me realize what a wonderful blessing it is to be married. He gave me my husband to protect me – from myself. Ironic, I know.

But I believe in soulmates. My husband is my soulmate. He in every sense, complements me. No, he does not complete me, I had to be complete first before I give myself to him, but he is in every sense, my hero. God has put him in my life, preparing every step, arranging every scene. And I know God has a grand plan for us and our family.

I need to work on my being a wife. I need to adjust and flex myself, not because I have to be lower than my husband, but because I am his support. I will be his source of light. I need to work on myself, so I can be the best for him.

I always pray that we have a perfect relationship. But now I realize, there is no perfect relationship – just a relationship centered on God. Without God, it wouldn’t have worked out.

Another grace I’m living from God’s generosity.

Realities of married life…

My hubby and I took the day off. It’s only 2 days before the year ends and we want to relax a little. It’s been a hectic 2006 for us, started off with my new job, a death in the family, and our wedding last September. I wanted to reflect on the year that was and perhaps begin to write (again). I have been contemplating on a lot of things but never seem to find the right words.

I have been adjusting well to being married. Our first few weeks was very exciting and fun with all the things we need to prepare and arrange for the apartment, all the shopping we needed to do! And of course, I get to spend all my time with my new hubby, getting to know him from another perspective. But after sometime I got homesick. I would cry because I miss my family. Being the melancholy that I am, I was also anxious of what the future will bring.

Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo:

We went to see Ryan Agoncillo and Judy Ann Santos’ movie – Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo. An officemate advised me that it was a feel good movie. I was curious about the story. Ryan and Judy Ann are real life sweethearts, and I wanted to see how they ‘play house’ in the movie. My hubby and I totally got to relate with their roles during their wedding planning stage. We both laughed our hearts out. We also saw ourselves during the times when Ryan and Judy Ann were adjusting with each other after the wedding. All couples do pass that stage. And though we haven’t gotten to the pregnancy part yet, I believe that I have seen a glimpse of what is to come through Ryan and Judy Ann. Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo brings to life the realities of married life. How you go about the tedious job of wedding planning, the adjustment stage, and the starting a family stage. I did feel good after the movie, but in a more personal way. I was re-affirmed of my hubby’s love for me, I got to know him a little deeper, and I got to understand myself more.

I will be sleeping more soundly tonight because of this.